LEARNING HOW TO SAY “WHEN”
Posted by amber | My Diary | Posted on August 26th, 2010
You would think that after suffering from CF for almost 2 years I would have learnt that you have to bank energy. What I mean for those who are not CF sufferers or are new to this thing, is that when you have a good day don’t go balls to the walls and use all that energy. You must quit when you are feeling GOOD and thereby stock up that excess petrol.
I guess its like gambling, quit while you are winning
Or like that sayings
“Save a penny for a rainy day”
“Quit whilst you are ahead”
Anyway yesterday was a superb sunny day and I got up early. Had good news as I have been accepted as a counsellor and the rest of the day was a blur of activity. Lunch with a friend, worked on my blog, walked the dogs, yoga. This is probably the most I have done in forever and I should have known better…
Today I couldn’t get out of bed. Cold weather, feel dizzy, nauseous, dragged my self to breakfast. Now on the couch with my cat, Black. Well she is also called Hat as she looks like a furry Russian hat when she is curled up or Stone-wash when she goes a grey-black colour.
But I digress. Please God tell me why I cant learn to say “When”. Why is there this insane , suicidal tendancy to just screw up all the good of the last weeks. Clearly my illuminated soul has not manifested itself yet.
Here’s me praying for divine intervention!