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Setsunai

Posted by amber | My Diary | Posted on January 23rd, 2011

Setsunai is a Japanese word for ‘sad’ or more eloquently a sadness and loneliness so powerful that it feels as if your chest is constricting, as if you cant breathe: a sadness that is physical and tangible. (from the book Tokyo Vice by Jake Adelstein).

I feel this setsunai. It totally describes how I feel about living with CFS, It is sometimes so overwhelming to have CF and know that there is no cure and you could have it forever. It can be incredibly hard to socialise and watch others indulging in everyday activities that you cannot. You want to sob but you hold it in and the tightness over your heart and emotions is like a strangle hold.

But enough about M.E.

I have recently been thinking¬† of how tragic it is that even though we are now more connected than ever – cellphone, fax, computer – we actually communicate less authentically than ever. Twitter, sms’s and emails are not letters or phone calls. They don’t really cut it as true communication. Remember how fab it was to receive mail – birthday cards, valentines day, Xmas. Now you get group sms’d or emailed. So boring and impersonal. We have become more distant and alienated from each other with these weapons of communication.

And we are trying to use less paper and destroy less forests, yet it seems we are still laden-ed with tons of useless notices at work; pamphlets attached to our card windows and shoved in our post boxes. When do we learn…

And due to deforestation, pouching and our ravenous hunger for land we are endangering tigers, leopards, chimpanzees, cheetah, The list of endangered animals is ridiculous, check out the Worldwide Endagered Animals List.

And while I am bitching … a city near me has run out of water, yet further inland there are floods?!@#$% And we don’t think we are affecting the ozone …

The AIDS pandemic … We are constantly shown on TV;on the Internet; in adverts and at school the dangers of catching or transmitting HIV, but we still don’t wear condoms; and we share needles. We seem to have the attitude that it will not happen to us as we are not ‘those’ kind of people.

Likewise we continue to smoke and lie without sunblock in the sun. Restaurants still subject there patrons to secondhand smoke and we still allow sunbeds. BECAUSE it wont happen to us!

Well I best get off my soapbox and hope that if I try and make a difference and lead by example maybe others will follow too. Check out the South African Lead SA campaign.

2 Responses to “Setsunai”

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