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Source Code or the Fork in the Road

Posted by amber | My Diary | Posted on June 29th, 2011

I went to see this movie called Source Code a couple of weeks ago. It was basically about a guy that is made to go back in time and alter events to avoid a bomb going off in a train.

Anyway it got me thinking about how unbelievably fabulous it would be to go back in time and change or tweak my life so that I didn’t have to be where I am today with CFS. I was kind of wondering where that fork in the road came that led me done the CFS path as apposed to another? Would I recognise where the ‘train’ truly went off the rails? Or would the choice be so subtle that even going back I wouldn’t see the nuances that could alter my destiny???

The two forks that I think could have altered the outcome of my life are as follows,

  1. If I had never started boxing, then in theory I would never have slipped a disc in my neck. And I wouldn’t have landed in bed at home for 3 months and therefore I would have never needed to celebrate my neck recovering by going to Mozambique. This way I would have avoid the neck injury and CFS!!!
  2. Or if I just had never gone to Mozambique and slept on incredibly filthy bedlinen, I might never have caught the virus/parasite/bug/lurgy that led to the unleashing of the CFS???

So what I would like to know is if any of the above where forks in the road and why did I pick the path I did? Am I meant to make lemonade out of the lemons or use rocks to build when I would rather be throwing them?

And why do we have to have choices or is the whole damn thing preordained and we are just a piece on the huge chess board of life maneuvred by one seriously sick f..k!@#$%^

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